||[Oct. 17th, 2004|06:18 pm]
1. Choose 10 people from your friends list at random.
2. Write something about/to each of them.
3. Don't tell anyone who the statements are about. Good or bad. No matter how they beg!
1.You were my best friend for so long.We have been through so much.We made so many promises.They have all been broken.We are torn apart.Fear, ignorance, pride, and shame tear us apart.I hope we can become close again.Like we were 7 years ago.I miss you.
2.I want to thank you for your support, and caring words.You gave me a reason to live, and to stop some bad habits of mine.I will always remember the times we have had together.I will never forget how I could see into your soul, and make you smile.I will never forget looking into your eyes, and feeling so great.You kept me alive, when the pain is ALL I KNEW.You helped me become happy, and healthy.Although we are no longer together, I wish you happiness.I hope he is all that you ever wanted.You deserve to be complete...I hope the distance will bring us closer...I hope our worlds will coincide sometime soon...
3.Boy, we have a lot in common.We have been through the same shit.We have taken the abuse.We have been broken for so long...No one else seems to understand how emotions will tear us apart.We are not like them...we feel things differently.Together, we are good for each other.Everyone is against you now."We" are not..."We" will make a famly together...I hope the shit that follows you around goes away soon.You don't need it...not anymore.
4.We have known each other from the 6 grade.Damn...we sure have changed a lot, huh?Thankyou for always being there.No matter how stupid I got.Thankyou for remembering me when I was all alone.You have seen me through the good and bad times...You have seen through everything to ME.How?Can you tell me how you did that?I hope we will always be there for each other.I hope we can be close again, like we were that summer a few years back.
5.We met one fateful day in Midlothian prison.We shared our deepest secrets.I was there for you when he died...when you cried.I was the only one to understand you.You knew everything about me for a while...until I learned a little bit more about myself.I changed, as I departed my old self.You then decided to say you were embarressed to know me.You tore me apart.You know who you are.It goes both ways, hun.You instill anger in me...I will never be able to get what we had, back.Thanks for not being a friend.Blaming ME for everything.
6.For a year and a half, you were life support to me.You were my everything.I never felt as happy as I was with you.I want you back...or atleast, who I think you still are, back.We have been down the same road...at different times in our life.We have changed...in the same way.I wish that you could see me now...I wish I didn't scare you off...I wish you didn't leave me for drugs and Jacob 2 years ago.I wish, I wish, I wish...upon the night sky.I still look up at you through the clouds, and past dusk, until tomorrow, hoping you are doing the same...I still love you.
7.Mwahahaha.Jesus is still attacking me...along with the fake Pepto Bismol.IT IS NOT PINK BISMUTH, IT IS PEPTO BISMOL, YOU DUMB CHEAP BASTARDS!!I love you.We laugh at anything together.We could laugh at a wall.It would be OK in our world.We should really throw ourselves into Tucker's...a 2 for 1 deal!!We can laugh while on pills, just like we always wanted!Damn crazy person.PILL POPPER!!
8.You have changed me in ways no one else could have.It is not a bad thing, either.I guess they were all right...I needed to seek new souls to figure out what I am.How did you do this?Are you some type of magician??I love you anyways...
9.You gave me a place to stay.You gave me advice.You paid your respects.I have known you since I was in the 9 grade.I just wish we could get closer.Trust is something to not be broken...I know.I have dealt with the wrath of unfaithfulness to the extreme.Will you trust me??
10.Although I just met you, it seems that I have known you in another place and time.Maybe I lived in a past life with you, soul mate.We feel everything in the same way.I really gained respect for you that one night we were sitting out on the dock by your pond.You are an artistic soul...I just wish you knew how to show it.You and I are so alike...we will soon become close.After all, I do live with you 3 out of 7 days of the week.
11.(Yes,I broke the rule!)Although you live so far away, I hold you close.I want the best for you...I can't fight them away when they attack you.I can't scare away your demons...when they attack late at night.I can't help you when all you see are shadows and ghosts...I can just read your poetry, and feel for you.Your words are truly great...you are an AWESOME poet...DO NOT EVER STOP WRITING.I love you...I will never forget you.Life may let you drift to all corners of the world...but the computer binds you to me.Talk to me, no matter what.
My past haunts me.I miss them...God, I miss them.I want them.I needed them, for so long.They betrayed me.They hurt me.I will never be the same.And I thank you all the same...